Monday 4 May 2009

Eyeliner blues

The horizon line is fading
Slowly disappearing from view
Storm clouds in the distance
Rolling over me and you
There's lightning traces
And lipstick faces
Straight boys dressed up in drag
High heeled shoes
Eyeliner blues
A notion of a slag
- - - - 
An angel in the architecture
Reaches for heaven above
Paupers in the gutter
Strung out on second hand love
A drunken sleaze
Wearing green jade knees
Foretells the price of fame
In glitter ball charms 
And tattoo artist arms
The story reads the same
- - - - 
It's raining down in Soho
A girl sings in a lonely bar
Songs of a better yesterday
Dreams of being a star
The shadows they taunt
In faces shallow and gaunt
Notes wrung out to dry
They greet the rain 
They hide the pain
No one listens when she cries
- - - - 
Whispers trail on stony ground
Forgotten words remain unspoken
Trees they bend to touch the earth
A truth already broken
Lovers gaze
In separate ways
Then walk away alone
The streetlights sigh
To the desperate sky
Gestures the way back home
- - - - 
Hyenas laugh in the graveyard
Ghosts haunt the frigid air
Eyes caught in a car crash
An illuminating stare
Shot blood red
Gunshot dead
Mascara black as night
Slips from her face
Slides without grace
Gives up without a fight
- - - -
A heart beats to a rhythm
Pressed gently in a hand
Connected to a feeling
Lines drawn within the sand
The halo slips 
To another ones lips
Together lost in time
As devils they call
Kisses innocently fall
Hope will always shine
- - - - 
Tonight the stars shine quietly
Silently to sleep
Baby don't you cry now
Darling don't you weep
There's moonlight strings
A serenade of kings
The freedom of a dove
Skin touches skin
A prayer from within
Two boyfriends making love

Oh my gosh, this poem has not turned out as I intended it to but I love it all the same; it still manages to tell the story I wanted to get across but it's a surprise. I've had verses running through my mind all afternoon whilst at work and I was so hoping they would stick around until this evening so I could capture them. Some I did and some I didn't - the vast majority of the final verses were originally in mind as a start to the poem, but hey it changed. I knew I wanted to write quite vividly to capture emotion and imagery within the piece but I think I've surpassed my original vision and it now tells more a full story.
To quickly surmise the poem is a story of how love can overcome adversity in whatever form adversity comes in. In this case it's about homosexuality for obvious reasons - I'm gay and in a gay relationship. The first five verses are all real dark and foreboding - storm clouds, paupers, loneliness, broken love and death etc.; to kind of portray the adversity such a relationship can face. The final two verses are the light in the poem - hope, love and beauty. A heart still beats to the rhythm is how it starts - and it does and will continue to do so wherever love is present.
The poems called "Eyeliner blues" simply because I just so love that line within the poem. When all's said and done it's simply a love poem that's all; love will always triumph over adversity. It's for us, me and my boyfriend; and anyone else who faces adversity simply because of a feeling they call love - hope will always shine. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sunday 3 May 2009

Unlocked

Watching 
The water
Fathoms
So deep
Cold
Otherworldly
Destination
Unknown
- - - -
Watching
The skyline
Concrete
Metal 
Glass
Not ugly
Industrial
Operatic
- - - -
Watching
The horizon
Clouds
Sky
Sunshine
Meeting
In silence
As one
- - - - 
Watching
The breeze
In motion
In prayer
Changing
Direction
Painting
The heavens
- - - -
Watching
The words
Unspoken
Transparent
Transcending
Time 
Space
People
- - - -
Watching
The boy
In silence
These eyes
Innocent
These thoughts
So true
Friend
- - - -
Watching
The day
Pass
Slow motion
Doors
Lay open
Unlocked
No keys

I need inspiration to write poetry, today has been full of it, that's why this poem was born. It was so easy to write, it's just the story of today, the story of spending time together at Salford Quays. What a wonderful place, it reminds me of an oasis - a place of quiet, of peace, of tranquility in a big, bustling city. Just a place of such contradiction, the mix of water and beauty surrounded by concrete and glass. 
It's a place where you can't help but look and take notice; my eyes just open wide, watching, admiring taking photographs for the mind. Watching someone in particular, just so pure - that's what the penultimate verse is about - a boy, my friend.  The final verse, well it brings it all together, The Quays are mentioned abstractly along with my mindset, so open and honest. Spending time with someone special leaves me with no fear - leaves my door unlocked; that's the title of the poem, Unlocked. It's been a great day xxxxxxx.

Saturday 2 May 2009

Empty spaces

The trees sway
In the wind it calls
Crystalline dew drops
Morning fall
The sun is golden
The sky is blue
The clouds roll by
And I miss you
- - - - 
The birds sing
In rhyme in code
Notes from heaven
An empty road
Fields of grass
Visions of two
All this beauty
And I miss you
- - - - 
Clocks they tick
Time slides away
Breaking the silence
Wasting the day
Reminder of passing
Memory so true
Reflections in the mirror
And I miss you
- - - - 
Let me breathe
Smell your skin
See your eyes
The beauty within
Stars are hidden
Vanished from view
It means nothing
And I miss you
- - - - 
Night time drags
In shadows in faces
Threadbare walls
Empty spaces 
Dreams of desire
A moon falling through
Into the twilight
And I miss you
- - - - 
Jigsaw puzzles
Of the mind
I've been stumbling
Lost and blind
To kiss your lips
To feel your touch
And I have missed you
I've missed you so much

It doesn't need much of an explanation does it? This is for my boyfriend who I have missed so, so much; it's been horrible. I know our being apart has been self imposed due to me being ill and he has respected that wish, but it's been so difficult for the both of us. I just didn't want him getting ill too and I'm not much fun to be around when I'm not well anyway. 
But still I'm glad that the worst is over and I'm overjoyed that I'll be seeing him shortly; gosh he makes me so very happy. This is called, "Empty Spaces" it's for you babes, I've missed you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.